Wouldn't you like to know?

To say that I can't be defined would sound tacky and pretentious, as if I was set apart from the crowd, born of a different breed, and superior or inferior to everyone around me. I'm not some enigmatic creature that lives in proverbs and aphorisms, who sits in a room, filled with incense smoke wafting through the air. I don't dress in black and live in the outskirts of observing society from afar, commenting on how I break social standards by being undefinable.

Then again, to label myself under specific names and brands would be unfair to me and your understanding of me. No one likes being stuck with a label and the connotations that follow that label. I'm asian, that doesn't mean that I play video games on the weekends, solve extra math equations during the week, and work hard in school. Well I do play video games, but that's beside the point. The point is, that I really don't have a point. I dont have a definition. I can't define myself by the things I do, because I'm constantly changing what I enjoy doing. I can't slap on some ridiculous label on and say, here you go, I am _______ think what you want of me.

Well then what makes up the person that I am? Experiences. I've moved 5-8 times, I've kinda lost count, and I'm to lazy to think about where I've lived and when I moved. I've split my head open and came close to slicing my arm off because I was fooling around with friends. I have a very unstable shoulder that pops out often, and I should get the surgery, but I dont want the recovery to ruin my spring break and summer vacation. I used to be medically obese and lost all the weight freshmen year. And my life history can go on... Most of it insignificant, because when I reflect on it individually, I cant find any relevance, but together, they make up what I am.

My purpose in life? Ha, like I know. My goals in life? I don't know, not suck? Right now, I'd like to enjoy a little bit of senioritis, where I don't have to worry about any college deadlines that I have to meet, or any final boosts in my GPA that I need to care about. My goal right now is to spend as much time as i have with my friends. (I've also found that as I worried less about school, I've done better, interesting... hmmm... )

Well that sums up my rant for the first blog. I hope i didn't set any standards and require all my other blogs to be this long. I'd like to call myself energy efficient, but one of my English teachers, who will not be named, said that I am the "ultimate guru of laziness". I kinda like that title